Wednesday, September 29, 2010

snake


Ends: of summer; time in the country; time
before departures. Time
tapers to a snake that slides invisibly
off into the long grass of the world,
though such a narrowed notion fails to scratch
the itch lodged in between
impatiently waiting for something new to happen
and clinging to what, having
already happened, slithers
off into the brush without a sound.


by Rachel Hadas

Saturday, September 25, 2010

traveling concert series - Laura Veirs

Laura Veirs is performing tonight in Minneapolis. I really wish I was there to see her. So in lieu of making that trip, I am bringing her music here...to my blog. :) Won't you please enjoy?

"Summer is the Champion"



"I Can See Your Tracks"



"Wide Eyed, Legless"




Fun facts about Laura Veirs:

~ She attended Carleton College, located in the same tiny town as my alma mater. In fact, her college campus was the location of the "cookie house", where you could go any hour of day or night and bake cookies, as long as you left the ones you didn't eat for other stoppers-by.
~ Her latest album is named after a type of peach that she bought at a farmer's market and canned. (Have I mentioned my canning aspirations?)
~ She didn't start writing music until after college, while on a geological expedition as a translator in China.
~ She collaborated on "Yankee Bayonet (I Will Be Home Then)" with the Decemberists, and is included in a compilation album of Led Zeppelin covers coming out on Oct. 12.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

"under my house?"

Last night, I spent about 40 minutes on the phone coaching my mom through cropping and uploading her first Facebook profile photo, and writing her first wall post.

We started with a photo of her and my dad. I emailed it to her.

We talked about how to toggle between windows and applications, where her downloads go, where to save things (she said the lady at the Apple store told her to save them "under my house" -- VERY good way to describe it), and how to crop pictures in Preview.

I know she's choosy (an artist), so rather than cropping the picture for her, I talked her through the steps (but still followed along with my own copy). She sounded doubtful when she was done.
"I wish I could touch it up a little."
"Why, did you crop it really close? I mean, you can have some of the scenery around it."
"Yeah, but I want it more on my face... I don't want Dad in it. I want people to see me. Will you look at it?"

So, she emailed her pic to me. (Minute 17.)
"I think it's good, Mom! I like the way you cropped it close-in."
More hem-ing and haw-ing...debating pros and cons...and... "Will you send me yours?"
Her curiosity never ends.
Me: "Oh my gosh..."
Mom: "I like options!"
Me: "I was gonna say...this is like planning your retirement party all over again."

So I sent her mine. (Minute 20.)

"Oh, I like that!" She wanted hers more like that, but not quite that one. So she bravely forged ahead without my guidance.

"Wait...let's see...now...wait....oh gosh, now how am I gonna do this? Shoot....wait... Okay, I'm gonna download it...and then I'm going to...oh...what was it where it did the..."

She was wanting to know how to crop her picture again. (verbatim -- around minute 22.)

When she got the rhythm down, it got easier. Her first crop was followed by a second -- "Now it really looks like someone was chopped out of the picture" -- which was followed by a third. "My head was too far off to the side, that's what was concerning me."

And finally...the last crop. Uploaded and everything. "Oh, there's my thumbnail! Oh cute..."

She was proud, and I was too. But apparently the process had been arduous.
Me: "You should write something on my wall!"
Her: "Oh, hell..."

***

That is the saga. I love talking to my mom... She is such an earnest, urgent learner, so inquisitive. She's not afraid to ask and learn. And she has a way of phrasing things that cracks me up. I'll leave you with this gem:


"I gotta start growing my friend base... I have five."

Monday, September 20, 2010

must share: We No Speak Americano



via Up & Over It ("Irish Dance for the Post Pop Generation")

Thursday, September 16, 2010

rambling google searches are my specialty




Yes, this is a real Google search of mine, so bad that it made even me laugh.
Any RN, BSN friends want to help me with the name of this thing? Or just people with better memories or penchants for medical TV dramas?

Friday, September 10, 2010

julia alvarez

"Touching Bottom"

Sometimes the best advice comes randomly.
"Please hold through the silence," the machine voice said,
the best advice I've ever come across
for weathering writer's block. At the restaurant,
my friend tasted her buffalo steak and said,
"It's not anything like they say it is,"
which words should be engraved upon my heart
and piped into my memory each time
that I assume the saying of the world
is anything at all like living in it.

And yet, I love how words can sound the world,
how they can take you deep inside your life:
you say something simple, and suddenly,
that plank in reason breaks and down you drop--
into a liberating train of thought.
You're drinking coffee, talking to a friend,
and poetry unravels from her mouth,
an Ariadne string that leads you out
of that dark labyrinth where a minotaur
of your own making has held you in thrall.

"Keep your end level," my husband advised
as we built shelves, and as the high-strung one,
I took his words to heart. "Take in my give,"
my mother used to say as we made beds,
which words taught me how to conduct myself
in future bedrooms with the men I loved.
My self-made father once said, "We should live
like poor men with money." When I thanked him,
he asked, "For what?" I said, "Because I just
touched bottom when you said that."

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

bye-bye, santa

We drove up a sloping street to a blinking stoplight.

I logged in to Facebook.

We peered through our open windows at the idyllic garden lots past the intersection. Things didn't look right...

I scrolled down on my news feed. Ah -- wanna read this. "I was about to post that this would be FTF's LAST FIRST FRIDAY of the season..."

Wait...where were all the cars? Where was the long line? "Oh my gosh, I hope they're still...

"...but something juicy popped up yesterday. So I think you'll see me again in October."

... OPEN!!" A vintage trailer appeared in the dappled afternoon light.

Oh thank goodness.

Happy chatter of relief.

Snow cones will continue...for a few more weeks.

------------------------------------------

When I saw on FB that my favorite summer diversion is nearing its close for the season, I felt like a distraught little kid discovering the truth about Santa. Apparently it had never occurred to me that slurping icy treats in a sunny, buzz-y garden wouldn't last right through fall and winter to next spring.

I'll have some adjusting to do, without those near-weekly trips to the trailer in the blazing heat. But I'm definitely thankful for it. It's been the site of some favorite memories and a source of much-needed inspiration -- and those will stick with me with quite a while. Sort of like the syrupy handprint of a two-year-old on black pants.



PS...If you haven't made it to the trailer yet, you can still get snowy freshness in another form!
This place now carries "snow pops" in the same awesome flavors as you find at the trailer, but they're in an extra-convenient, available-more-often, you-could-even-drive-while-eating-this-but-don't-say-I-said-so format. :)
(Jo and I are thoroughly enjoying our lemon prickly pear pops. Who wouldn't?)

Sunday, September 5, 2010

relaxing is a practice

I don't think it's uncommon to expect that a few hours of "doing nothing" will result in "relaxation" or "rest." But I do think it's totally wrong.

It's incorrect to assume that you can go full-tilt every hour of every day, then think that just because you've stopped sprinting, you should feel rejuvenated.

I took time off Friday afternoon to rest and think. I submit my life to unnecessary analysis way too often on a daily basis, but I thought the restful, reflective time off I planned to take would actually help me go a step beyond that anxious stage. I thought that several hours of sitting in a pretty park would yield some startling revelations about my next steps in life. Or at least some good poetry.

Or...neither.

I sat. I let the breeze remind me of my skin, my self, open to the summer sun. Tiny ants played hide-and-seek in my sandals. My mind buzzed around looking for something to land on. My traffic controller brain insisted that my thoughts be either inspired or productive. Life-changing, hopefully. Seriously revelatory or charmingly anecdotal. Blog-worthy? Maybe.

I don't know how long it's going to take me to really realize that my mind works best unattended. That I need to get the heck out of my own way. To LET GO.

And that the kinds of unexpected insights that really guide my life aren't going to come from sitting down and planning to have them in a two-hour time frame, sunny afternoon or not.

I got up and walked. I looked at old homes. I took in the view from a bridge over I-70. I admired a flourishing vegetable garden beside a tall house. I bought a cookie. I stepped over trunk-sized tree pieces. I tiptoed along sidewalk tiles that the earth and air had jostled into disrepair. I found a book of poems in a library, and read in the parking lot. And I realized that two hours was only enough time to get started finding the rest, and answers, my soul needs.

Too often, I find that the unrealistic expectations and demands I place on myself, my time, and my resources lead to chasing rest rather than finding it, and substituting superstition and self-reliance for the real faith I want to have. "If I open the book to something that speaks to me..." is more an effort at time-saving than it is listening. "The right thought will come to me in this time frame; I just have to catch it" leads to hyper-awareness that stifles mental freedom and the gentle leading of spirit and mind, melding of heart and head.

It feels like it's taken me a long time to realize this -- and maybe it has. But I hope I'm learning to allow myself the freedom to experience these revelations as they come, and to receive them, rather than filling my head with nonsense that doesn't belong but gives me something to hang onto for the time being. I hope I'm learning that rest isn't something I can play hide-and-seek with, but will come in its own time -- and the part I play is patience. I hope I'm learning that practice is the goal, not perfection. Rest, listening, release. When so much of life seems to be about seizing time, opportunities, attention, it's a deep choice to drop everything and be present. Here I am.

Send me.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

can you dig it?

I recently had a minor epiphany: I like pretty-colored foods.

This is a good thing, because I used to eat only white foods. My friend's dad made fun of me for it. I attribute my culinary growth partly to his intimidating presence -- no way I wasn't going to eat that cactus veggie something on my plate with Randy glowering above me.

Anyway, I was recently given some of the most delicious stuff known to humankind from a talented locavore and coworker with whom I share a birthday! She called it "spiced tomato jam." It was like heaven in a jar, my friends. It led me to the special salad at Eden Alley two weeks later, which boasted a spiced tomato and golden raisin compote over warm brie cheese, with croutons that resembled eggless french toast adorning my plate. Healthy it was not. (I think I heard the mixed greens gasping for air.)

And then THIS VERY MORNING, while driving in to work, NPR featured a story about canning stuff! And posted pretty pictures of stuff in cans! Like a row of veggies in a new garden, I do believe the stars have aligned.

I'm adding this to my list for 26: learn how to can stuff.

Resources:
Urban Homesteading Classes at Badseed local urban market - scroll down for Canning & Preserves

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

storycorps coming to kc


Most of you have probably heard snippets from StoryCorps on NPR -- it's the organization and radio show that captures interviews between people who want to preserve their memories through a recorded conversation. When I heard that StoryCorps is coming to KC, I started thinking about who I'd like to take there and interview. First thought was my parents, but then I realized how much I'd like to capture little tidbits of all of my relationships. Every person's personality is like a little thumbprint, and I love how StoryCorps captures that in audio.

Who would you interview if you had the chance? What topics might you want to talk about?
Here's StoryCorps' "great questions list," too, and a few great conversations from the website to get you thinking.

"Have me and your mom ever disappointed you?"
(what an amazing 8-year-old!)

Robert Patterson, who has Alzheimer's disease, talking with his wife, Karen
"I can remember things that occur in my heart much better than things that occur in my head."

"How come I didn't scare you?"

"You and your sister couldn't tell us apart. And we couldn't tell you two apart."